Death not a motivating factor?

I admit it, the diabetes never really scared me. Even when I ended up in the hospital I wanted to go get 'just a can' of pepsi out of the cooler. Even when my blood sugar was 23 (normal range is 4 - 7) it didn't seem to bother me. I'm convinced that regardless of what your health issue is, that its not a motivating factor. Even in the light of certain death, some people won't quit smoking, some won't quit doping up, some won't quit what's killing them. It's not that I'm not afraid of death, I'm certain on some level everyone is. And it's not that I want to leave my family behind and start a new one up in the clouds some where. It's just that death was never really a motivating factor. It's something that seems so far fetched when they tell you, quit this or your going to die from it. Even, if that could remotely be true. There will always be some justification for your behavior in your mind should you continue. There will always been some supporting evidence you can find to state your case. There will always be someone who half heart-idly agrees with you. You can't quit something because it's the best thing for your family. It might work for a while though. You can't quit because your scared of death, it might work for a while though. You can't quit because your job depends on it, you'll just get another job. You can't quit unless you decide to do it for yourself, and that's not easy, there's nothing nice about it, it's not a walk in the park, it's not going to get easier as time goes by. You know it, I know it - the fact of the matter is if you truthfully are addicted to something you just have to stay away from it, period. You can't have just one. You can't be around people that do it. You just have to stay away from it. They can tell you all day to quit this or that, but unless you decide it is in your best interests it really doesn't matter what 'they' say. After all, they say allot of things. They can tell you 'it's not as hard as you think' but you know it, I know it if your addicted your addicted. I'm not trying to be grim, I'm just stating the facts from my perspective. What you decide is ultimately your decision in the end. My decision, is just to try because that's all I can do when death is not a motivating factor.

An Attempt To Quit

Ok, so your going to likely doubt it. Then of course you don't have the same problem. You've never been addicted to anything. But, what if? It's been 20 plus years that I drank pepsi, I'm sure if I had stocks in pepsi they would have done well. I almost would have went as far as getting a pepsi tattoo because there's no way I would ever quit drinking it. So, as the story goes - as one would expect I got type 2 diabetes. Some say it can't be attributed to the pop, it must be the sedentary life style. I beg to differ. I'm certain that pepsi was the ultimate factor that guaranteed I would get it. So, this blog is about my struggle to not drink soda one day at a time. Is there an alternative to drinking pepsi? Some type of diet drink that you can replace it with, I'm not sure yet. If you think that it is an easy thing to do, then do it for your own health. If you find it easy not to have any soda or pop then you are definitely not addicted and I'm happy for you. If you notice the jolt of energy it gives you in the morning in place of coffee, you know what I'm talking about. If you can't put it down, and have 10 in the fridge at all times, might know what I'm talking about. If you can't stop thinking about how much you need one, then you might know what I'm talking about. I hope you have no idea what I'm talking about, that would be healthier for you. Thanks for reading my strange blog about life without pepsi, if that is possible.